Our nine year anniversary is approaching. The first time you made your presence aware to me in the form of numbness. First my head. Then my shoulder. Then my whole arm.
Little did you realise you made me feel completely numb. Completely numb with fear. A fear I have never experienced before in my 38 years of living. My care-free loving filled life which you almost stole from me.
Today I listen to The Waterboys and the tears are slowly falling. Sadness for the loss of days, weeks, months, years which you stole from me – but not my life.
Our nine year anniversary is approaching.
Until Friday, I smile through the tears…
Now I can see you wavering
As you try to decide
You’ve got a war in your head
And it’s tearing you up inside
You’re trying to make sense
Of something that you just can’t see
Trying to make sense now
And you know you once held the key
But that was the river
And this is the sea!
(The Waterboys – This Is The Sea)